Hai. I’m feeling strange today. Not just today, but a week
already. I think hiking can makes me forget it. No matter for a while i will
appreciate it. But, till now there’s no effect. I’m just feeling more tired and
broken. And i hope, share with you can make me little relieve.
Maybe we usually know it as Karma. Yes, i get it. I too
often give expectation for someone and i erase it suddenly. I just wanna close
with someone without any binding deals. Because it makes me more comfortable
and keep feelin’ free. Now, someone has gave me expectation and i know well that
he is loving someone else. More than anything.
Actually it is not a big trouble. Just little feelin’ that
would be fade away by time. But when ? the more i try to forget, the more he
appears. F*ck !
I just already said to myself “he is your brother. Let him
love anyone else. And support him no matter what”. It gave me better feelin’. At
least i can keep like him eventhough he loves someone else. I hope myself can
accept it and all of this strange feel will perfectly gone.
Please bless me, God
Vina
