Hai, sorry for offering you another unimportant post, but i
have to tell it to you. I’ve heard that school isn’t place to find a “score”,
but “knowledge”. Yeah, actually since my first step to went to school i always
plan to bring a high score for mom, dad, and people i wanna share. I never
thought that i was right there just to get knowledge. Because we all know, we
can get so many knowledge everywhere, everytime, with everyone. Not just in
school.
When i was child (10th above), all i can do to make my mom
and dad smiling just getting a good score. And when i was tenagers (10th bellow),
another effort to make them smiling is having a special skill in specifict
subject and having an achievement in non-academic. Everyday i learn in what i
like and interested me. And everyday the desire to get good score has been fade
away.
In 17th, my idealism was growing on. I started to like
politic, social, culture, and public. I have watched news everymorning, i have
read newspaper, i have shared with people, and thought to have some demo in
school. It’s a such fun to learn based on reality. And unconciously I hated
Math, Geography, Java, Chinesse, and 7
others. There’s a great punch in my head when my raport unsatisfiying me. i needed a long time to change my mind and i
wrote a little note .
“it just an useless subject. It just completed the score. And good news, who care about score ?. It doesn’t influence me at all. I believe i’m still alive in next 10 years nomatter my Math, Geography, Java, Chinesse and 7 other score was bad.”
One year goes by ... now, i’m holding that little note. Little
note that i wrote one year ago when i definitely crazy. Because .... what
should i say if all the people’s judgement based on the score ? are we still
darely said “ i don’t need score” ?
This is my confusing biggy question that appeared when i
almost sleep. I was thinking about bad score i get in Math, Java, Chinesse,
Geography, and 7 others. Apperently it has a such big influence in my life. My score
influences the “SNMPTN Undangan” that determines which university i get. The University
i get influences my future. My Future influences my career, then, finally it
influences my life. My life. One more. My life !!
I hope it just my paranoidity or such kinda feeling because
do you think it is fair for our life determined by the unreal nominal digit on
a sheet of paper ?
Oke, it just my opinion. I think score can be exchange with
another measurement that more usefull. Like achievement for finding an usefull
inovation, achievement for dareness of doing something heroic, and achievement
of doing a good turn, and many more.
Oke reader, it just a little “galau” note of 18th nomaden
girls who confusing about future in middle night. bye
