Score and Life

Hai, sorry for offering you another unimportant post, but i have to tell it to you. I’ve heard that school isn’t place to find a “score”, but “knowledge”. Yeah, actually since my first step to went to school i always plan to bring a high score for mom, dad, and people i wanna share. I never thought that i was right there just to get knowledge. Because we all know, we can get so many knowledge everywhere, everytime, with everyone. Not just in school.

When i was child (10th above), all i can do to make my mom and dad smiling just getting a good score. And when i was tenagers (10th bellow), another effort to make them smiling is having a special skill in specifict subject and having an achievement in non-academic. Everyday i learn in what i like and interested me. And everyday the desire to get good score has been fade away.

In 17th, my idealism was growing on. I started to like politic, social, culture, and public. I have watched news everymorning, i have read newspaper, i have shared with people, and thought to have some demo in school. It’s a such fun to learn based on reality. And unconciously I hated Math, Geography,  Java, Chinesse, and 7 others. There’s a great punch in my head when my raport unsatisfiying me.  i needed a long time to change my mind and i wrote a little note .

“it just an useless subject. It just completed the score. And good news, who care about score ?. It doesn’t influence me at all. I believe i’m still alive in next 10 years nomatter my Math, Geography, Java, Chinesse and 7 other score was bad.”

One year goes by ... now, i’m holding that little note. Little note that i wrote one year ago when i definitely crazy. Because .... what should i say if all the people’s judgement based on the score ? are we still darely said “ i don’t need score” ?

This is my confusing biggy question that appeared when i almost sleep. I was thinking about bad score i get in Math, Java, Chinesse, Geography, and 7 others. Apperently it has a such big influence in my life. My score influences the “SNMPTN Undangan” that determines which university i get. The University i get influences my future. My Future influences my career, then, finally it influences my life. My life. One more. My life !!

I hope it just my paranoidity or such kinda feeling because do you think it is fair for our life determined by the unreal nominal digit on a sheet of paper ?

Oke, it just my opinion. I think score can be exchange with another measurement that more usefull. Like achievement for finding an usefull inovation, achievement for dareness of doing something heroic, and achievement of doing a good turn, and many more.

Oke reader, it just a little “galau” note of 18th nomaden girls who confusing about future in middle night. bye